Positive Birth Thoughts

Since yesterday I retired myself into maternity leave. My body needs calm and rest now, more than ever before.
I feel the birth is close, sometimes so close that I think it will happen the same day, knowing that these urges still are Braxton-Hicks-contractions and due-date ist still a few weeks away…

I think a lot about the birth and am once again very impressed about how different each pregnancy feels, how each baby change my sensations and inner feelings in his own unique way and how it all remains so unpredictable.

I remember the other four births and especially the beauty, strenght and peace during labour with our last two children, alhamdulillah – I think those were the most powerful and blessed moments in my life:

https://ittosjournal.wordpress.com/2009/06/28/an-almost-unassisted-childbirth/  

…and I plan and prepare everything for a smoothe homebirth inchaallah. 
This requires work on my inner beliefs and hidden fears.
I visualize positive, I read Sura Meryam (Qur’an 19), eat dates and pray, but I also organize the necessary material and space (especially to keep warm during labour and after birth), I prepare clothes, diapers, a hospital bag in case of emergencies, I inform our children about details of birth and look for people I feel comfortable with, to instruct them as care-providers for the kids and when I am in labour and childbed…
and I try to put all my tust in Allah, that He will give me the strength and the chance to experience once again one of those wonderful unassisted childbirths, full of magic, bliss and joy, inchaallah.

“If you have had a positive birth and you are feeling good about it, then you will often feel completely energised and brilliant in the days after you have had your baby. – Women need to hear this message too as well as getting information about what might be unpleasant or what might go wrong.”
Milli Hill

some inspiration and support:

Ina May Gaskin’s Book 

an this one from Sarah Haydock 

this book from Milli Hill 

and this from Anita Evensen

http://www.positivebirthmovement.org

http://www.lifetouchyou.com/practical-tips-for-a-fear-free-positive-labour-experience

 

Advertisements

In the kitchen _ January

When it’s cold outside, cloudy and grey, often one of the best things to occupy ourselves is by working in the kitchen: the kids love to participate; it’s a nice moment spent together, to transfer and share knowledge, to learn and laugh (most of the time); and in the end we have a useful outcome and the stove or oven keeps the house warm…

 
In these cold times, and especially during pregnancy, I often crave for food from my childhood.
And since I am half Czech and born very near to the Swiss border, I grew up with potato pancakes.
They are very famous in both countries and the recipes vary only little. In Swiss style they are known as “Roesti”, in Czech style as “Bramborak”.
We eat them with sweet cinnamon applesauce, with kraut or cabbage, and with tomato salad.
yumm!!

 

here you can find a variety of different recipes:

https://www.thespruce.com/roesti-step-by-step-1447190
http://www.czechcookbook.com/potato-latkes-bramborak/
http://allrecipes.com/recipe/212824/bramboracky-czech-savory-potato-pancakes/
http://www.tresbohemes.com/2016/02/bramborak-or-czech-potato-pancake/

bon appetit!

growing, waiting, getting ready

soon  …  or still six or more weeks to wait ?!

I feel ready, inchaallah, and more and more tired…
I feel the phase beginning when you really get ready to be a mum to a newborn,
to give out the baby to the world, to welcome him in your live,
to allow  him to become part of the family (more than he already is now)…
but I know very well, that this phase can take quiet a while, it can “cook you until you are really soft”, almost angry, and not ready to wait any longer, but truly ready for the last painful pressing you have to do to free him and yourself…

I pray, and imagine, and prepare the last things…

and I wish myself, my family and you, dear friends and readers, a very blessed new year of 2018, full of blessings, beauty and prosperity in every way – may Allah bless us all with His bounty!

 

week 33 – nesting

33 weeks of pregnancy and winter is here now…
I feel the need to sit in front of the fire place, to keep warm, to knit (just simple plain knitting – I love the process of it even if I do nearly never finish a piece… and the kids sometimes join me)

and I slowly feel the urge to prepare home for baby, a nesting instinct that comes with the approach of the birth…
wishing you all a warm home, hearth and heart!

 

Mainz -Graz -Zuerich – Marrakech- and back home

Two weeks are already gone since I came back home from my journey through Europe.
And still, I reminisce in memories … it was great, subhanallah!
It was great to travel alone, to feel myself without distraction, to see how I act alone in a world that was my home years before but is now so far from my everyday-life…

It was great to feel so comfortable and welcomed in Europe, even with a headscarf and alone as a Muslimah – I had only very positive encounters, everywhere, and I felt a real openness and friendliness of the people in Germany, Austria and Switzerland, alhamdulillah. And it was deeply touching and amazing to feel and see the labor, the effort and the energy which our dear partners put into the support of our campus and social project.

   

We had a great time together and I was really able to enjoy the different countries as kind of a tourist, but also still feeling very much embedded in the culture, like a fish in its waters.
I was amazed by the grey and cloudy winter weather, the warmth inside the heated houses, the green of the forests, but also by the beautiful Christmas lights and decoration everywhere, the smell of cinnamon roasted almonds and gingerbread, and about the quality and the huge choice of so many aesthetic things, of all the fair-trade and eco products and the material-beauty everywhere. I sometimes felt like Alice in Wonderland, and I really enjoyed being in the land of plenty…

But after two weeks it also felt very good to come home again – Home to our simple life in the remote mountains of Morocco.
It felt so reassuring to have a place where I really belong to, Allahu akbar, to know where my place, my duties and my job is; To feel the safe harbor of my closest family, the love of my children, the loving attention of my husband who took care of them during my absence, subhanallah, the diligence and sense of responsibility of my whole team at school, the quiet of country life and the amazing nature around…. Oh mashaallah, I am so very thankful for and feel so blessed with all of this!

I am grateful for the freedom and possibility to experience such moments and to enjoy the best of both worlds, of Europe and North Africa.

 

Now winter has also begun here and the birth of our fifth child approaches – I am excited about his coming, inchaallah.
I was able to learn a lot during my training in Germany and I feel ready now to let go things, to delegate and to trust in the capabilities of others who will continue my work at the campus; I feel ready to concentrate myself again on the task of being a mum of a small baby, inchaallah.
On to new adventures and ready for everything that might come, inchaallah!

Happy to be back here – sending love, light and peace to you xxx