Knitting thoughts in late autumn / early winter sun

I sit in the sun and enjoy the unusual warm December weather. We had already some snow, the nights are already freezing cold and the mountains are covered in white.

But today is just beautiful. Alhamdulillah. I knit, plain right, simple rows – maybe a poncho for our little girl. She’s nearly two now, mashaallah, playing in the sandbox beside me; and the repeating rhythm of knitting reminds me of the repeating rhythm of motherhood…

they all played in sand, and I began knitting beside them nearly 16 years ago… since then, I changed a lot, my mothering style changed, many things changed… yet, I am still not a very good knitter and seldom finish a piece.

But in winter, I love the relaxing move of it; it helps me clearing my thoughts, calming down, sitting with the little ones while actively creating something… the right thing for someone who doesn’t like just to sit …

happy December dear readers and friends!

Getting back…coming home

Seventeen days away from home and family, out of my small world and my own realities, straight into other ways of living, thinking and being. I met family members, professionals of different areas, new people and old friends all across the three German speaking countries.

Since two years it was my first trip to my homelands and the first trip without my husband and kids. Just the little one and me. Subhanallah, what an opportunity to widen my horizons, to open my mind, to leave my own box and to re-adjust my self.

On the road back home, hour after hour through lonely hills and deserts, I had much time to reflect. After leaving Europe and the lively city of Marrakech, the quietness of the wide Atlas mountains gave me time for reflection and a first conclusion.

Now I am back home. I feel thankful, alhamdulillah, refilled, inspired and with a suitcase full of wonderful memories.

But also exhausted – honestly, I find it hard to get back to normal. There is all the laundry to wash, four children to listen and get connected to again, things to put in order and a whole lot of thoughts I would like to ponder on (“who am I? Who do I want to be? What values do I wand to transfer and what image do I want to give as a mum, a wife, a human being…?”)

Coming home with a fresh view, I see now mountains of work and things I would like to change around and inside myself. I know, I want too much at once and I have to be careful not to overload neither me nor my family.

“Give yourself time, Itto!” – maybe this should be my mantra for the next weeks…”ommm”- writing my diary, enjoying autumnal weather and putting first things first…. happy and blessed November inchaallah!


On my way…

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Quiet here means a lot going on on my mind in reality…. still and always learning so many things about life and me, alhamdulillah,
learning to use and treat more wisely the gifts Allah offered me, inside and around my self, subhanallah.
too many different and personal thoughts to type here
… but I wish you a very beautiful December… may Allah bless your ways!

لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا ۚ لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ ۗ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِن نَّسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ ۖ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَا ۚ أَنتَ مَوْلَانَا فَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ –

Quran 2:286

“Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity.

It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us…”




My daily dose of Positivity #6


I sing these affirmations often over the day with a self-invented melody … sometimes in english, sometimes in german…
together with some dua’, dhikr and tasbih (remembrance of Allah), they help me keep calm and stay positive,
even in difficult situations or in moments I would wish otherwise. Subhanallah.


Happy Saturday and happy November!

My daily dose of Positivity #1

The trees are still green, some already yellow – the beauty of Autumn as usual in late Octobre …
and then suddenly Winter came this weekend … snow and ice-cold!

I think we might have to prepare for a long winter…
electricity comes and goes and I’ll try to use this week of school holidays for a makeover of our home: to create some coziness, inchaallah.

And I have prepared a little gift for you – every day of this week a picture of beauty and a dose of positivity… affirmations that really help me to go though my days and empower me to accomplish the things I have to do, subhanallah.
I hope they’ll give you as well that dose of positivity we all need sometimes.