Memories and a Poem

Nearly a month that I didn’t write here – So much that happened over the last weeks at our school. You can read about it at our blog and facebook-site, even around the internet you’ll find different articles and this film talking about our big opening party at the “campus vivant’e”, alhamdulillah.
Now it is getting more quiet around here, Ramadan approaches and a silent fatigue can be felt. The last months were exhausting, yet beautiful.
I’ll share some pictures here and this beautiful German poem a friend gave me – it reflects quiet well some of my thoughts and feelings…


(Songtext von „Silbermond“) 

Sei wie der Fluß, der eisern ins Meer fließt
Der sich nicht abbringen läßt egal wie schwer’s ist
Selbst den größten Stein fürchtet er nicht
Auch wenn es Jahre dauert bis er ihn bricht
Und wenn Dein Wille schläft, dann weck ihn wieder
Denn in jedem von uns steckt dieser Krieger
Dessen Mut ist wie ein Schwert
Doch die größte Waffe ist sein Herz.

Lasst uns aufstehn
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Wo seid Ihr
Ihr seid gebraucht hier
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Das hier geht an alle Krieger des Lichts

Hab keine Angst vor Deinen Schwächen
Fürchte nie Deine Fehler aufzudecken
Sei bedacht, beruhigt und befreit
Sei auch verrückt von Zeit zu Zeit
Lass Dich nicht täuschen, auch wenns aus Gold ist
Lass Dich nicht blenden, erst recht von falschem Stolz nicht
Lerne vergeben und verzeihen
Lerne zu fesseln und zu befreien

Lasst uns aufstehn
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Wo seid Ihr
Ihr seid gebraucht hier
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Das hier geht an alle Krieger des Lichts

Und er kennt seine Grenzen und geht trotzdem zu weit
Kein Glück in der Ferne nachdem er nicht greift
Seine Macht ist sein Glaube
um nichts kämfpt er mehr
Und das immer und immer wieder
Deswegen ist er ein Krieger

Das ist ein Aufruf
Und das hier geht
an alle Krieger
an alle Krieger
Das ist ein Aufruf
Und dieser Aufruf geht
an alle Krieger des Lichts
an alle Krieger des Lichts
Das hier geht an alle Krieger des Lichts

(Danke Fabienne!)


Peace, light and love to all of you!


busy learning


salam aleikoum friends,

it is quiet here on this blog of mine and this is the first post I write in 2016 – so happy new year to all of you!
but I guess you know what that means: if it is quiet here, it is very busy in real life. many things to do away from this little space of mine.
I invite you to have a look at our school’s blog or facebook-site where you can read about some of the activities I am involved with and also look at the trailer of the film our partner school produce after visiting us in 2014.
thanks for your wishes on my last post and wishing you all the best again,
until soon, inchaallah xxx , blessings and peace.

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Vacations and some liberate learning

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We have spring vacations here and are enjoying some days off.
While my husband, some laborers and the excavator are diligently working on the construction of the building for the secondary school, the children and I are mostly home, enjoying the warm weather and some free time to read, play, cook, spring clean…

With four children age two to eleven, alhamdulillah, the range of interests is very wide and different and it becomes sometimes quiet a challenge to satisfy all.
While the smallest two still are very happy just to discover life and play beside me, the older ones are quickly bored and need more suggestions.
The older they get, the stronger gets the temptation to just sit in front of the computer or television. We’ve scheduled and limited these times to encourage real activities, their imagination and creativity and not to overload their still little heads with too much abstract informatics.  So most of the day they play, draw, make sports, sometimes read or write, but every now and then they get really bored.
“Mummy, I don’t know what to do….” – These are the moments they need some companionship; these are the days when I  have to take the role as a facilitator on their learning path.

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I then try to figure out in small discussions what their actual area of interest is by attentively asking, listening and feeling, by questioning, giving some small input, a little advice, an impulse, a book, some material, a helping hand or simply by the pronouncing of some empathetic “ah’s” and “oh’s”. That, together with some openness and a lot of confidence in their abilities, is often enough to get them started into a new project full of learning and growing.
Those projects, like the billiard-table they made these days (see the pictures), like the bows and arrows,  the birds-project and many others, are often day-filling and really holistic, they are challenging and opportunities for deep learning:
by putting ideas to paper, by searching information in books, drawing plans, writing material-lists, thinking about construction and details, calculate measurements, buying or producing  supplies, using tools, fixing and putting things together, they learn often more than they would in a whole week of classical school.
And that’s how we, at the école vivante often organize student-projects –  because the whole world and every possible activity is a chance for real learning and growing, often including all subjects one could possibly have in a regular school day.

Happy creative spring vacations to you!


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this WinterJoy and some Reading

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sometimes we get snow here in Morocco.
it’s not often, maybe twice a year.
a few days ago it was enough to really get sliding and playing in the white.
these are the days the kids are longing for.
these are the days they fully enjoy outside, because the snow is so special and normally does not last very long.
these are the days I enjoy as well-  a bit outside in the snow with them, but mostly inside in front of the fire.
we have a lot of sun all year here, even in winter, alhamdulillah,
so I love these dark and cloudy days, because they are so rare and therefor are really exceptional.
these are the days that remind me of my childhood in cold winter Gemany.
these are the days that remind me of my childhood-dreams and the cozyness of a warm home.
these are the days I really enjoy with a good book or some handcrafts. alhamdulillah.

wishing you warm, harmonious and cosy winterdays, no matter where you are!
bless you.

our reading list in december:
Astrid Lindgren: all her Winter Stories (“schau mal Madita, es schneit”, “the Tomten/Tomte Tummetott”, “Lotta”,….)
J.R.R. Tolkien “the Hobbit”
Alexandre Dumas “the three Musketeers”
Stefan Merath “Der Weg zum erfolgreichen Unternehmer”
Louise L.Hay “Meditations to heal your life”
W.D. Storl “Der Selbstversorger”
Zoe Weil “Above all, be kind”
H.D. Thoreau “Walden”
Steve Jobs’ Biography
Fatima M. D’Oyen “the miracle of life/Wunder des Lebens”

schnee karre schneemannschnee sm schneemorgen

A mother’s summer survival guide

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Ramadan is over and the second half of our summer holidays began. That means for me to be a full time, homeschooling, and stay-at-home-mom again.
It also means that I have to redefine those roles for myself because I haven’t really had them since we opened the school in 2010. So it is for me now quiet a new challenge to care 24/24h for four children (including a teething toddler) without babysitter help.
It was important for us as a family to have now some private time without other people at home; it was important for us to enjoy the new house exclusively as a family and to keep out the different energies non-family-members sometimes bring into home. So it was a conscious choice to spend the holidays without maid and babysitter and to take on again the role as a housewife. I mostly enjoy this, alhamdulillah, and most of the time it really feels good.
But I have to confess that there are moments when I really struggle with all the duties and the energy-level fulltime mothering requires. After one day of past Ramadan extra-fasting I quickly gave up the idea to make up the missed days from last year because fasting in Ramadan is a blessing but outside the holy month it asks for a lot of extra effort and strength which I fully need now to put into my mothering-role in order to stay sane and positive, inchaallah. So at the moment our days are a constant changing, up and down, inhaling and exhaling, feeling well and exhausted, a mixture of happy-relaxed-summer-moods and a yelling-crying-arguing-bored-fatigue, mashaallah: Carrying the whining baby a LOT and not having free hands; trying to respond to the many different needs and interests from children of different ages from one to eleven who are with me the whole day, preparing food for everyone everyday nearly five times from scratch, fighting the never ending piles of laundry and dishes and a house to clean…while feeling guilty not to spend enough quality time with the little ones but at the same time feeling frustrated not to work down my “have-to-do-list“ or not to be able to have me-time and to do something of my “want-to-do-list”… – mothers, I think you know what I am talking about – we have the hardest job on earth!

To stay positive I’ve put together some of the things that help me going through the hard times and to find bliss in the everyday – I thought it might help some of you as well.
Happy blissful mothering to all of you! Take care and never forget to be good to yourself!


10 ideas that help me surviving these summer-holidays-at-home:

  1. Aiming to complete every day ONE thing of my to-do-list:
    I don’t aim for more, but also not less. My aim has to be achievable beside all the things that have to be done during a day with four little ones (all the mundane household chores). So when I succeed in doing one thing of my personal list it gives me a feeling of deep satisfaction to strike through at least one thing every evening instead of looking at five things I wanted to do but couldn’t.
  2. Taking breaks:
    we take them often during the whole day, to stop, to inhale and to recharge my batteries, with iced coffee, tea, homemade frozen lemonade, waffles, cake, melon or some other yummy thing.
  3. Accepting that piles of laundry and dishes are a reality and never will end:
    I try now to see these chores as worship and as the important and blessed work of a housewife.
  4. Going out at least once a day:
    going into nature, leaving the house, breathing fresh air helps me a lot to keep a good mood, even if it is only for ten minutes. And going on adventure every now and then, gong on a longer walk, an expedition, a trekking, swimming or fishing…
  5. Surrounding myself with beauty:
    it fills me with infinite joy to live in a beautiful environment and to keep my home nice, alhamdulillah. To use natural, handmade, crafted everyday objects nourishes my soul and gives me positive kicks throughout the day. Serving drinks in an antique glass jar instead of a tetra pack, or using a wooden bowl instead of a plastic basket, to use the nice linen table cloth and the good old porcelain from grandma, to put on a nice dress, to decorate the table with fresh flowers and to give the kitchen a new look with fresh colours on pillows and candles, all of that is bliss!
  6. Setting the right priorities:
    I have to remind myself to focus on the real important things of holidays and not getting distracted by unimportant mundane stuff: the kitchen doesn’t have to be swept every day and my water tabs do not have to be polished… I try to spend quality time with one of my little ones instead. The dished do not have to be washed right away when baby just felt asleep and when the bigger ones play outside – I can use that unexpected free time to read a book or to sew something for myself which makes me happy and helps me being a more patient mom afterwards…
  7. Staying offline and unplugged:
    one thing I’ve learned over the years is that switching the computer on to go online, trying to read or respond to an email during day and while being with the kids just doesn’t work for me: Because I don’t work well nor am I a good mum then, I either get angry with the PC or with the kids… So I decided to go online only when they sleep, which is by night or in the early mornings.
  8. Rhythm and structure:
    Holidays have to be different, the living has then to be an easy one and days feel best when we are able to flow with the moment, to relax and to live free without all the duties of normal life. So I try not to structure our days too much: We sleep after fajr until we wake up without an alarm clock, we eat when we feel hungry and we simply decide every day to do what we want to do… but to keep some rhythm and some structure helps me to benefit even more from these lazy days, to stick to some routine and some family rules makes the easy living much easier for everyone and helps me to stay sane.
  9. Praying:
    I pray everyday for guidance and ease, for Allah’s help in all the responsibilities I carry and for wisdom in all things I have to do and think about.
  10. Being thankful and trying to see the positive in everything, especially in the gift of being allowed to have so many beautiful little souls under my care, subhanallah!

Maybe you have some other ideas to add?

sternkissen machen  carpe diem
sternkissen neu
new pillow – new colour scheme –  carpe diem – enjoy the moment.