keeping warm

no school today, too much snow….

wishing you warmth and comfort with these popcorn-recipes:



growing, waiting, getting ready

soon  …  or still six or more weeks to wait ?!

I feel ready, inchaallah, and more and more tired…
I feel the phase beginning when you really get ready to be a mum to a newborn,
to give out the baby to the world, to welcome him in your live,
to allow  him to become part of the family (more than he already is now)…
but I know very well, that this phase can take quiet a while, it can “cook you until you are really soft”, almost angry, and not ready to wait any longer, but truly ready for the last painful pressing you have to do to free him and yourself…

I pray, and imagine, and prepare the last things…

and I wish myself, my family and you, dear friends and readers, a very blessed new year of 2018, full of blessings, beauty and prosperity in every way – may Allah bless us all with His bounty!



week 33 – nesting

33 weeks of pregnancy and winter is here now…
I feel the need to sit in front of the fire place, to keep warm, to knit (just simple plain knitting – I love the process of it even if I do nearly never finish a piece… and the kids sometimes join me)

and I slowly feel the urge to prepare home for baby, a nesting instinct that comes with the approach of the birth…
wishing you all a warm home, hearth and heart!



Mainz -Graz -Zuerich – Marrakech- and back home

Two weeks are already gone since I came back home from my journey through Europe.
And still, I reminisce in memories … it was great, subhanallah!
It was great to travel alone, to feel myself without distraction, to see how I act alone in a world that was my home years before but is now so far from my everyday-life…

It was great to feel so comfortable and welcomed in Europe, even with a headscarf and alone as a Muslimah – I had only very positive encounters, everywhere, and I felt a real openness and friendliness of the people in Germany, Austria and Switzerland, alhamdulillah. And it was deeply touching and amazing to feel and see the labor, the effort and the energy which our dear partners put into the support of our campus and social project.


We had a great time together and I was really able to enjoy the different countries as kind of a tourist, but also still feeling very much embedded in the culture, like a fish in its waters.
I was amazed by the grey and cloudy winter weather, the warmth inside the heated houses, the green of the forests, but also by the beautiful Christmas lights and decoration everywhere, the smell of cinnamon roasted almonds and gingerbread, and about the quality and the huge choice of so many aesthetic things, of all the fair-trade and eco products and the material-beauty everywhere. I sometimes felt like Alice in Wonderland, and I really enjoyed being in the land of plenty…

But after two weeks it also felt very good to come home again – Home to our simple life in the remote mountains of Morocco.
It felt so reassuring to have a place where I really belong to, Allahu akbar, to know where my place, my duties and my job is; To feel the safe harbor of my closest family, the love of my children, the loving attention of my husband who took care of them during my absence, subhanallah, the diligence and sense of responsibility of my whole team at school, the quiet of country life and the amazing nature around…. Oh mashaallah, I am so very thankful for and feel so blessed with all of this!

I am grateful for the freedom and possibility to experience such moments and to enjoy the best of both worlds, of Europe and North Africa.


Now winter has also begun here and the birth of our fifth child approaches – I am excited about his coming, inchaallah.
I was able to learn a lot during my training in Germany and I feel ready now to let go things, to delegate and to trust in the capabilities of others who will continue my work at the campus; I feel ready to concentrate myself again on the task of being a mum of a small baby, inchaallah.
On to new adventures and ready for everything that might come, inchaallah!

Happy to be back here – sending love, light and peace to you xxx



challenging, developping, nourishing myself


wow, subhanallah, I feel alive – alhamdulillah, and very deeply thankful for having the chance of travelling to Europe by myself, just before the birth of our next little baby.
It has been 14 years (! ! ! ), I haven`t been on a travel without anybody on my side, never really been ALONE for more than a day…
I enjoy feeling, hearing, acting and re-defining my self in my homecountry, feeling again where I come from, being now so very different, little strange, yet still the same… mashaallah, very mixed feelings, a lot of growth, inner development, learning and the joy and blessing of meeting very inspirational people.
Maybe we can also meet? … I´ll be soon in Austria, Graz, and would love to see you there !

xxx love, peace and light to you dear all.



empowered by faith

After having been very busy with many worldly things over the last months, I feel now the need to concentrate again on my faith, to find guidance and support in my religion and to become even more productive with Allah’s blessings, inchaallah.

And as so often, I find good inspiration on this topic here:

Hope you are all doing fine; peace and light to you!