Update 10’18 – training myself

More than six weeks that I’ve written my last blogpost here…
too many things are going on in my life and I rarely find time to pause …mashaallah…
a new school year recently began, with new projects, students and volonteers to care for, alhamdulillah.
Very busy days, but also very good days.

– Good, yet not easy – I feel (stronger than ever before) that my duty is to learn how to balance life with all the different responsabilities.
It seems as if this is a never ending learning opportunity for me, my path of growth which I have to climb on and on until I master it, inchaallah.

Sometimes I feel very at peace, quiet, fullfilled, in the flow and in control of everything, like someone who juggles all the balls in the air without loosing one…
and then, there are the moments when I feel just so overwhelmed by all and everything, as if all the balls fall down on me – heavyness on my shoulders, no quiet, no time to feel myself, no moment to charge my batteries…
But alhamdulillah, these moments are fewer since I better learned to make clear my boundaries and to express my needs, since I learned to listen to myself, to feel less guilty and sometimes to say “no” to others.
I am continously learning on this, learning to better divide my time between family and business, learning to be more effective, to work more efficiently in shorter time, to concentrate on what really has to be done by myself and learning to trust things to others.

Being with my baby is a great source of peace. And writing a positive diary helps me a lot – morning affirmations for a beautiful day to come. Sometimes I even sing those affirmations during hard times to empower myself…
And nature is always a great healer, subhanallah – so I often go out to air my brain,
and we try to take more family weekends off… like on these pictures, a little trekking just around the corner of where we live…

 

 

The man who is wise, therefor, will see his life more lika a bowl, a reservoir, than a canal.
The canal simultaneously pours out what it receives;
the reservoir retains the water till it is filled, then discharges the overflow without loss to itself …
Today there are many who act like canals, the reservoirs are far too rare …

You too must learn to await this fullness before pouring out your gifts,
do not try to be more generous than God.

Bernard of Clairvaux

 

… And I am reading, a lot.
Reading literature on self-imrpovement, on entrepreneurship and how to submit and delegate tasks, how to empower others and how to lead a better social business.
The (german) books of Stefan Merath, the founder of “Unternehmercoach” (the same traning I attendet last november in Mainz) are great sources of deep and meaningful methods and ways how to lead a more fullfilled and meaningful life as an entrepreneur.

So this is my update – maybe I am not writing about many new things, but I am definitely feeling a lot of change and growth inside, alhamdulillah.
And if you sometimes wait for news to come here, I invite you to have a look there ! (that’s where I am busy working most of my time)
Happy Autumn dear readers and friends, peace, light and love to you. salaam aleikoum.


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Prosperity Consciousness – or how to set a positive mindframe

It’s the end of a long and moving school year. I feel exhausted and really look forward to the holidays and some weeks off – I need a break!
During this year, times changed from hard to great, and around – not very stable, very challenging with many ups and downs the whole way long.

The end of a school year always means to look back, to reflect and to do the accountability; to look at the numbers, the results, and the facts, to take stock and to draw conclusions.
This is one of these moments, when I realize the big mission we took and when I feel the burden of our responsibility, mashaallah:
We are a social business and only able to exist and to grow thanks to the financial donations of others.
Our schools are totally dependent on external financing and the goodwill of other people. Therefore the existence of our business is always based on vague hope – hope to find people who like to support our work, and hope to get the money we need in order to continue….

At the same time, as social entrepreneurs of this campus, we have to offer security and stability to many different people who are dependent on our existence and good performance: our many employees, many students, parents, volunteers and the society…

Sometimes, all these facts and the reality feel like a big package to carry. Especially when I am stressed, tired or overloaded by work… it then all looks so huge, so heavy, so unsure, sometimes even hopeless and impossible. Astaghfirullah, audhu billahi!

And then there are the times, subhanallah, happily most of the time, when God gives me strength and belief; when He fills me with a clear picture of our mission and with the certainty that we will succeed.
Then I feel full of hope, energy, positive vibes and ready to go further, to strive to succeed and to grow this place of light and chances for all. Alhamdulillah. Then I feel so clearly that there is no other way to go, that we have to continue and to work on this big project of our life.

Maybe all of this, the back and forth, these ups and downs, the fear and the hope, the worries and the strength is normal for a leader to feel:
Feeling like a tool of God, humble, knowing how absolutely dependent we are on Him. Knowing for sure that there is nothing really to fear or to count on, except Him. Following the inner call, feeling inner peace and freedom, because nothing bad can happen. God will never let us fall. Everything is possible through Him.

In order to attain the possible, one must attempt the impossible;
in order to attain the impossible, one must attempt the absurd. 

according to Miguel de Unamuno y Jugo and Hermann Hesse 

Over the years I’ve learned several methods, how to handle these ups and downs and the moments of despair.
When I began to realize the responsibility and the power of influence I have with my work and attitude, I needed to take control. Seeing how much my mood and mindset directly influence the others around, I know now how important it is to stay strong and hopeful:
If I am positive, everybody can be positive
– and with an “yes we can”-attitude we can really move mountains together!

I read a lot and learned different tools on how to stay positive, how to believe in Allah’s bounty and blessings, how to take the path of a visionary and a leader, and how to develop prosperity-consciousness despite all the critics of the confirmed pessimists.
And because I think we all are kind of a leader in certain fields of our life, I share the list with you:

  • Most important: Know what you really want and what you wish for. Have a vision. Know your aims and your values. Be very clear, specific and focussed about it.
  • Picture these aims and wishes inside your head. Clearly visualize them as if they were already real.
  • Create treasure maps for all these wishes
  • Very important: stop the little man inside your head, the little Mr.Doubt, the shaitaan.
  • Work on a positive mindset and work off old and inhibiting beliefs (this is very hard and never ending work on your inner thoughts!).
  • Get enough sleep; take care of your health, body, energy and soul.
  • Read, say aloud, write and repeat positive affirmations and quotes of encouragement.
  • Keep a journal of your feelings and your mood.
  • Remind yourself of what you’ve already achieved, alhamdulillah.
  • Open yourself to receive. Allow yourself to be successful. Be ready for all the good, the blessings and prosperity out there.
  • Be very careful with whom you share your thoughts and vision.
    Avoid doubtful or negative people (all these “if’s”, “but’s”…).
    Protect yourself against their pessimistic influence. Never let stop yourself by others who didn’t really achieve a lot.
  • Take very, very much care with whom you spend your precious time, know that your environment has lot of power on your feelings and thoughts.
  • Spend time alone to hear your real inner voice.
  • If everything seems hopeless and thoughts are just negative: take a walk in nature or go sleeping – tomorrow the sun shines anew.
  • Read powerful and encouraging literature on prosperity or biographies from great people:
    The holy Qur’an, The Bible, Napoleon Hill’s: ”Think and grow rich” (he even writes very respectful about the power of prophet Mohammed (sas)), Catherine Ponder’s different prosperity books (beautifully related to our Creator), Prentice Mulford, Orison Swett Marden, biographies of great people and achievers, …
  • Make dua’ (invocations), Istikhaara, read Qur’an and deeply be comforted by the faith that nothing and no one can hurt us except by Gods will – in and through God everything is possible and absolutely and eternally good.
  • Make wudu (ritual washing) and pray, pray, pray!

And now, off into the vacations! Wishing you a wonderful summer friends!

Nothing is too good to be true; nothing is too wonderful to happen, nothing is too great to last.

The Prophet (sas) said,
“Allah the Most High said, ‘I am as My servant thinks (expects) I am. I am with him when he mentions Me. If he mentions Me to himself, I mention him to Myself; and if he mentions Me in an assembly, I mention him in an assembly greater than it. If he draws near to Me a hand’s length, I draw near to him an arm’s length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.’”
[Sahih Al-Bukhari]

… this means He will forgive his servant if he seeks such, will accept his repentance if he repents, will answer him if he supplicates, and will suffice him if he asks for something …
(Imam Nawawi, al-Qadi ‘Iyad, Sharh Sahih Muslim) 

 

Mainz -Graz -Zuerich – Marrakech- and back home

Two weeks are already gone since I came back home from my journey through Europe.
And still, I reminisce in memories … it was great, subhanallah!
It was great to travel alone, to feel myself without distraction, to see how I act alone in a world that was my home years before but is now so far from my everyday-life…

It was great to feel so comfortable and welcomed in Europe, even with a headscarf and alone as a Muslimah – I had only very positive encounters, everywhere, and I felt a real openness and friendliness of the people in Germany, Austria and Switzerland, alhamdulillah. And it was deeply touching and amazing to feel and see the labor, the effort and the energy which our dear partners put into the support of our campus and social project.

   

We had a great time together and I was really able to enjoy the different countries as kind of a tourist, but also still feeling very much embedded in the culture, like a fish in its waters.
I was amazed by the grey and cloudy winter weather, the warmth inside the heated houses, the green of the forests, but also by the beautiful Christmas lights and decoration everywhere, the smell of cinnamon roasted almonds and gingerbread, and about the quality and the huge choice of so many aesthetic things, of all the fair-trade and eco products and the material-beauty everywhere. I sometimes felt like Alice in Wonderland, and I really enjoyed being in the land of plenty…

But after two weeks it also felt very good to come home again – Home to our simple life in the remote mountains of Morocco.
It felt so reassuring to have a place where I really belong to, Allahu akbar, to know where my place, my duties and my job is; To feel the safe harbor of my closest family, the love of my children, the loving attention of my husband who took care of them during my absence, subhanallah, the diligence and sense of responsibility of my whole team at school, the quiet of country life and the amazing nature around…. Oh mashaallah, I am so very thankful for and feel so blessed with all of this!

I am grateful for the freedom and possibility to experience such moments and to enjoy the best of both worlds, of Europe and North Africa.

 

Now winter has also begun here and the birth of our fifth child approaches – I am excited about his coming, inchaallah.
I was able to learn a lot during my training in Germany and I feel ready now to let go things, to delegate and to trust in the capabilities of others who will continue my work at the campus; I feel ready to concentrate myself again on the task of being a mum of a small baby, inchaallah.
On to new adventures and ready for everything that might come, inchaallah!

Happy to be back here – sending love, light and peace to you xxx

 

challenging, developping, nourishing myself

 

wow, subhanallah, I feel alive – alhamdulillah, and very deeply thankful for having the chance of travelling to Europe by myself, just before the birth of our next little baby.
It has been 14 years (! ! ! ), I haven`t been on a travel without anybody on my side, never really been ALONE for more than a day…
I enjoy feeling, hearing, acting and re-defining my self in my homecountry, feeling again where I come from, being now so very different, little strange, yet still the same… mashaallah, very mixed feelings, a lot of growth, inner development, learning and the joy and blessing of meeting very inspirational people.
Maybe we can also meet? … I´ll be soon in Austria, Graz, and would love to see you there !

xxx love, peace and light to you dear all.

    

Autumn on the doorstep…

  1. Happy about the cooler days, finally a bit of much needed rain and the smell of autumn in the air.
  2. Entering the second half of my pregnancy and noticing much more movements of baby.
  3. Struggling with too small waistbands of trousers and sewing (and online-ordering) some maternity wear.
  4. Beginning to wash winter-clothes and feeling close to make fire in the chimney.
  5. Updated the book list.
  6. Participating in politics and important world-actualities by actively voting at Avaaz.org.
  7. A heavy LOT to do in our school with the beginning of the new school-year.
  8. Allowing (sometimes even forcing) myself in this busy crazyness to take some time for me: just reading, relaxing and enjoying the moment.
  9. Enjoying autumn’s fruits: blackberries, pomegranate, plums, walnuts and apples…
  10. Wishing all Muslims a happy new year 1439 after Hijrah!

  

Memories and a Poem

Nearly a month that I didn’t write here – So much that happened over the last weeks at our school. You can read about it at our blog and facebook-site, even around the internet you’ll find different articles and this film talking about our big opening party at the “campus vivant’e”, alhamdulillah.
Now it is getting more quiet around here, Ramadan approaches and a silent fatigue can be felt. The last months were exhausting, yet beautiful.
I’ll share some pictures here and this beautiful German poem a friend gave me – it reflects quiet well some of my thoughts and feelings…

 



KRIEGER DES LICHTS
(Songtext von „Silbermond“) 

Sei wie der Fluß, der eisern ins Meer fließt
Der sich nicht abbringen läßt egal wie schwer’s ist
Selbst den größten Stein fürchtet er nicht
Auch wenn es Jahre dauert bis er ihn bricht
Und wenn Dein Wille schläft, dann weck ihn wieder
Denn in jedem von uns steckt dieser Krieger
Dessen Mut ist wie ein Schwert
Doch die größte Waffe ist sein Herz.

Lasst uns aufstehn
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Wo seid Ihr
Ihr seid gebraucht hier
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Das hier geht an alle Krieger des Lichts

Hab keine Angst vor Deinen Schwächen
Fürchte nie Deine Fehler aufzudecken
Sei bedacht, beruhigt und befreit
Sei auch verrückt von Zeit zu Zeit
Lass Dich nicht täuschen, auch wenns aus Gold ist
Lass Dich nicht blenden, erst recht von falschem Stolz nicht
Lerne vergeben und verzeihen
Lerne zu fesseln und zu befreien

Lasst uns aufstehn
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Wo seid Ihr
Ihr seid gebraucht hier
Macht Euch auf den Weg
An alle Krieger des Lichts
An alle Krieger des Lichts
Das hier geht an alle Krieger des Lichts

Und er kennt seine Grenzen und geht trotzdem zu weit
Kein Glück in der Ferne nachdem er nicht greift
Seine Macht ist sein Glaube
um nichts kämfpt er mehr
Und das immer und immer wieder
Deswegen ist er ein Krieger

Das ist ein Aufruf
Und das hier geht
an alle Krieger
an alle Krieger
Das ist ein Aufruf
Und dieser Aufruf geht
an alle Krieger des Lichts
an alle Krieger des Lichts
Das hier geht an alle Krieger des Lichts

(Danke Fabienne!)

        

Peace, light and love to all of you!

the beauty of working hands

We are very busy and occupied here these weeks, preparing for a big celebration at our school, inchaallah.

These are the (hands of the) wonderful women of our village, Allahumma barik. Mothers of our school’s pupils and neighbors and friends –  also busy working together in a womens’ cooperative for wool and felted products.

You are welcome to visit them and see their work!
Cooperative Tilatin, village de Timit, Ait Bouguemez valley, Morocco High Atlas

Or come and meet them and us at our big open doors- party, the weekend of 1st May. Marhaban!