In general I do not like to write about the dark side of family life, I’d rather like to focus on the good and joyful moments.
But I do not want to tell you tales as well and the truth is that sometimes life is really grey even here in that happy valley.
The boys and I have been through two very difficult days, moments when no parenting advice you’ve ever read about helped and the only thing you wished is to run away. Astafirghullah!
I think teething, changing hormones and full moon influence made things worse and so we entered a vicious circle and found nearly no way out, mashaallah.
Looking back, everything doesn’t seem that difficult and I feel better now after having been out in nature the whole afternoon.
But when you are in these struggles, it just feels so overwhelmingly bad:
boredom – aggression – yelling – crying – fights – weakness – blame – old wounds – pain – sadness – tears – feeling lost – name calling – jealousy – provocation – tiredness – depression … “aoudhu billahi min a shaitan…”
I know these moments go away, and we are not the only one having them, I know that the sun shines even behind the darkest clouds and turning to Allah always helps.
So I prayed for inner self acceptance, for love and a big sense of humour.
And yes, I think maybe that’s the key:
L O V E yourself and then you are able to spread out your love to others!
I leave you with these thoughts wishing you a lovely peaceful weekend, friends.