A new time for us as family begins. All my helping friends left, hubby is on work and the kids and I are alone a few days for the first time after baby’s birth. Wow, I am a bit scared.
Masha’allah, I know …
… that it will not be easy having a crying baby in my arms, a teething toddler pulling my trousers and a curious preschooler asking for my full attention (and all of that while dinner burns in the pan ).
… that there will be lots of struggles every day.
… that I will feel overwhelmed and exhausted sometimes.
… that I will be ready to explode, to yell and shout when things become too much.
… that my mood and hormones are not stable at the moment.
… that we need to establish a new rhythm and to define new chore-responsibilities.
… that I need to be gentle with myself, allowing myself not to make perfect all at once.
… that I need to make time for every single child, to give them what they need.
… that I will cry from time to time, wishing to escape.
… that the kids will get me on my nerves.
But even if so, I would not change my life with them for the world!
And I know that hubby comes back very soon and also my parents, inchaallah.
Allah, oh Lord, provide me with patience, kindness and a lot of humour! Ameen.