This year began differently than expected… we are on our own again,
the au pair girl will not come back… we had too many differences and I think sometimes you have to make a clear cut, not to let things become worse…
I do not feel sad about it or frustrated, alhamdulillah, I feel quiet motivated and excited.
I am looking forward to entirely be with the kids, to enjoy all their making, growing and playing and not have to share or explain my privacy and our style of life to someone else.
I am feeling much better since several weeks, alhamdulillah, no more fatigue or sickness, no more need for 12(!) hours sleep per night… so I am looking forward to days full of mothering and to kids-free evenings in front of my computer or my sewing machine, and to lots of cooking and baking with the kids, and also to store food for the upcoming months, when I will be too big to move or unable to cook with a newborn in my arms, inchaallah.
I like lists and schedules; I like to structure my days and try to make the most out of them. I do not make myself a slave of such plans and always try to stay open-minded, spontaneous and flexible, but I like to have a certain frame; bounds in which I organize my days.
So I am now reading parts of the Maxwell’s book again and try to find a new rhythm that fits for us right now.
Surely it will not be a schedule in half-an-hour bits as they propose, but a schedule that includes play-times and chore-times, just-me- and family-times, devotion- and nature-time… a schedule that shows me what I am able to accomplish every single day and how to do so with God’s help, inchaallah.
Wishing you well organized day’s friends, to have the best and most fulfilling outcome!